Wow, has it really been six months already?
I can’t believe it. Motherhood is amazing in that the days seem to drag on forever but you’ll look up and the months and years have flown by. It’s crazy! But I’m here to give an update on all of the topics I touched on in my One Month Postpartum Update to let you know where I’m at mentally, physically and emotionally; six months later. So let’s just jump right in!
Sleep! Glorious Sleep!At around the five month mark Myka began sleeping completely through the night and I could not be more grateful! For the first two months she was waking up about three times during the night which was a bit hard to cope with but I still found it manageable. Around the third and fourth month this dropped down to just one 3am feeding (although she did go through a 2 week sleep regression around four months that almost took me out). But I’m happy to report that she has been sleeping completely through the night for the last month! Such a blessing.
An Update On My Mental HealthIn my initial update I expressed that I was not in the best shape in terms of my mental health. I was having the worst anxiety, especially at night, and was feeling extremely emotional.
The panic attacks that I was feeling at night ended around the two month mark but I am still coping with my anxiety. Speaking to a counselor has helped a lot though and I no longer feel as though the anxiety is crippling to where I’m not able to care for my babies. I find that I still get overwhelmed from time to time as I’m still adapting to caring for two children at once but I’m taking everything day by day. I’m giving myself grace but also celebrating every win (even the little ones).
What About My Body? Am I Snatched Yet?
The short answer is Not At All. Depending on whether I just ate or not I can still look a few months pregnant at times. But I have seen a lot of progress in my strength and stamina. I’ve been working out pretty consistently for the last month and I’m noticing subtle changes in my body as the weeks progress. I’m not back to my pre-baby weight yet nor am I really pressed to be (I’m enjoying my new curves). But I’m excited to feel stronger and more capable in my body. Most importantly I’m excited to nourish and care for my body to repay myself for bringing two beautiful babies into this world. I think as postpartum moms we get so consumed with snapping back into shape that we don’t properly appreciate our bodies for bringing forth a freaking life! Don’t get me wrong, I’m excited to eventually tone up just like most mamas are. But I am loving myself during every step of my fitness journey, loose skin, stretch marks, fupa and all.
My Biggest Parenting Struggle Right Now
The biggest struggle I’m having right now is balancing being the best mom I can be for both of my babies. My kids are 2 1/2 years apart and I know eventually the age gap won’t seem so wide but right now it feels like night and day caring for them both. I’m balancing a picky eater with a baby who still breastfeeds on demand. I had to manage potty training while tackling blowouts (Thank God that’s over). I’m trying to teach one to crawl and the other to ride a bike and the list goes on. At times I feel like I’m being stretched as far as I can go, in opposite directions and I don’t always feel like I’m doing the best job.
Well that’s where I am, at six months postpartum! Feel free to drop any advice on managing age gaps while parenting. And I’d love to hear about your postpartum journey as well! Be blessed ❤️